Final Fitting.

I had my final fitting today. I tried on my dress with greasy hair, hadn't showered in 2 days, washed my hair in probably longer, Im hairy so I can get waxed next week and I am just all on nasty. Sorry for the horrible horrible image. But I put it on, slipped my shoes on and stood in front of the mirror. And as I stood there, I felt absolutely flawless. And I don't have that feeling much in my life, actually probably never have I experienced that. But it was the most amazing feeling. And I can't believe I get to wear it in one week. I can't believe how much I still have to do! And I am sitting here blogging. And I plan on taking a bath today for no reason other than the fact that I want to.

Thank you cards.

It took me all summer to write my graduation thank you cards. I don't think it's going to be like that this time around. I am so anxious to start. It is hard for me to not be writing them right now because of how ridiculously blessed I feel by people. I just keep reminding myself Ill have time once I am in California and I don't have 78 thousand little last minute wedding things to try to finish while I plaster my eyes open trying not to fall asleep.

Breakfast at Tiffany's.

I am not sure where my fascination with Audrey Hepburn came. I am also not sure why Breakfast at Tiffany's remains the best movie of all time in my mind. But I do know that when my emotions are crazy, Jesus always is there to sit and drink tea with me as we watch Breakfast at Tiffany's together. I love that about Jesus. He takes such good care of my heart. I hope I never get sick of Breakfast at Tiffany's. I feel like we have experienced every emotion together. I mean; I am about to put in the 3rd disc I have owned and I am praying to God it doesn't scratch and stay frozen at the party scene forever and ever like the first two did. It needs to make it through the whole movie for me tonight.

A wife.

I am going to be a wife. In my mind I keep coming up with all of these cute things I want to do as a wife. I think I am going to start keeping a list so I don't forget. Today I had one idea. It's a real real good idea. And I realized that in a month I might forget it. So I need to start a list.

Bridal Shower.

I had a bridal shower today. It was too perfect for words. My bridesmaids are so stinkin amazing. I am still in awe of it all and it has been over for five hours now. I feel so blessed to have been showered upon in so many ways today. I almost just cant even write about it yet. It all feels so surreal to me. I am getting married in 13 days! How incredibly crazy and exciting is this?

15 days.

My wedding day is 15 days away. As I stood in front of the mirror this morning it hit me in a way it hadn't before. And I liked it. I just cried and prayed and thanked Jesus a super lot for being so good to me. Because he is so good to me. My bridal shower is in 2 days. Thats so weird. Im a bride. For real a bride. I fooled around with my hair a bit because I am doing it myself. And I think it has potential of being perfect. I am making all of the favors today with the dearest Jesse Scenga. I am so excited. My mind is going crazy with all that I have to do that no one can really do for me. But as I accomplish one thing at a time I feel better and better. Exciting exciting things are happening. I am moving to California! It's weird. It kind of feels like I am just getting ready for another trip. But it's for good. I mean, God might move us somewhere eventually. But for now. It will be my home out there. Jon wrote me a song this summer. In it he wrote the line; "Your the home where I belong." He left that on a blue post it note in my apartment when he left from that September trip. I put it on my door and it has been there ever since. I am glad to be going home with Jonathon. He is where I belong. Im so ready to be his wife.

Ihop.

ihop.org

Live feed of their prayer room.

This is amazing.

I feel like I am there and I am just watching it online.

Everyone should watch these all of the time.

Gas.

Jaime locked her keys in her car while she was getting gas today.

As I pulled in three hours later to get gas I had a weird feeling in my gut, but I safely secured my keys in my pocket and reminded myself I don't ever lock my door away anyways. I finished and got in my car and laughed at my silliness of thinking that something weird was going to happen. As I pulled onto I-75 I noticed my gas door thingy was open. The rest of the way home I couldn't remember for the life of me if I had put the twisty cap on. By the time I pulled onto my street I came to the conclusion I for sure did not and it had to be gone by now. That's why there was a random honk when I pulled out of the gas station. When I got out I went to shut it and saw the twisty cap sitting right there on the back of my car. Over ten miles, turns and expressways that little cap never fell off. That's real cute of Jesus :-)

Anxious.

For I believe the first time, I began to feel very anxious about my wedding tonight. As Jaime and I spent the evening shopping for bridesmaid shoes and jewelry I was enjoying my time with her and just feeling relaxed to be in her presence. I pretty much forced her into making some decisions because my mind was slowly getting on overload. When I got home my mind would not stop. The amount of things I have left to do is outrageous. Here this past month I thought that I was super on top of things and making a lot of leeway, and now, seventeen days away from my wedding my mind does not stop reminding me of all that has yet to be accomplished. In the midst of my crazy thought processes I just text Jonathon asking him to pray for me. He called me and as I started to mention the list of things to do he very firmly yet gently told me to stop what I was doing, go make tea, and read my Bible. I am a stubborn and very determined girl. So when I have a list of things to do I am not about to stop it. Plus my pride snuck in and in my mind I got all huffy; does he really think I haven't read my Bible yet today, it's already 10 pm and I have to get this stuff done so I can sleep longer than 5 hours tonight. As he persisted that I needed to drink tea and read my Bible my pridPost Optionse shattered and my determination for accomplishing wedding tasks was corrected to determination for God. And I had realized I hadn't read my Bible yet today. So I began at Isaiah 40. I stopped at verse 8 because it leaves me in awe. And what was going to be my Bible and Tea break has turned into the end of today for me. Im glad God is making my eyes so heavy I have no choice but to sleep. I really could use it.

Charades.

Anytime someone suggests charades I try to get out of it. I just always start out hating charades. But about 2 people in I wonder why I tried to get out of the game because it is pretty much an amazing game. It was my parents, Nicole and Eric, Angela, and Jon and I. It was hilarious. For a few hours we went through the different Cranium cards acting like fools as my dad kept score by building domino towers. The girls kicked butt. Zechariah takes like an hour nap at 8 instead of sleeping all night so he played with us till past midnight. He thought putting a domino in his mouth and bouncing it with his fingers was fantastic. His top right tooth is starting to come through. It feels nice. I like seeing him grow.