Challenges.

I have officially decided that being married, starting a new life practically and keeping in touch with the people that I love so dearly and have been so supportive from the 20 years of my life is extremely challenging.

I haven't figured out yet how to do it right and that is starting to bother me. I feel like there is not enough time in the day to spend with God, hang out with the greatest husband ever, keep the apartment clean and the husband fed, talk to two sets of parents, however many siblings I have now, and all of the friends that are so precious in my heart. But while doing all of that I have to spend 9 hours out of my day at work. And I am also supposed to start getting involved in church and making my own friends here...

Proverbs 31:12 "She does him [her husband] good, and not harm, all the days of her life."

Jon and I were listening to a sermon series before we got married. In one of the sermons the pastor shares a study that found it takes a married couple typically seven years before they're first response to their spouse is selfless rather than selfish. You don't realize how selfish you are until you are married. But the amazing blessing in that as well is that you don't realize how forgiving you can be either.

Jonathon has all of these newfound crazy amazing opportunities. It is so fun coming before the Lord together and just waiting for his voice and guidance.

Work is going swell. I realized today that I don't talk as much as I really talk in real life. That really bothered me. But I don't know what to do different about it. I have just found a new passion for listening, truly listening to people. I have just fallen in love with listening to different people talk... that I forget to join in. Anyone who knows me, knows this is very strange.

Some things I hated doing before that I thought would change once I got married:

Folding laundry- still hate

Doing dishes- only sometimes hate

Going to the bank- still hate

Vacuuming- still hate

Cooking- absolutely love

Pumping gas- still hate

Separating socks- still hate

We got our wedding pictures yesterday. Sooo many. They are so amazing and I am so excited to show them off.

Problem with the pictures?

The week of my wedding... I lost weight I guess.

Now typically this would be an amazing blessing.

But in my dress... you can see I lost weight.

And that makes some pictures very unflattering of me. And I thought that when you were a bride everything was flattering because you were just flawless all of the time... that's only in movies. I also thought that when you lost weight everything looked more flattering... also a myth. If I can just train myself to get over that... Ill be fine. I am also sure that if I didn't post that information for the world to see... no one would have noticed.

While looking through the pictures Jonathon told me that for the pictures he understood why I had to have as much make up as I did on, and he didn't notice then, but that he liked me better the way I looked last night... with only day old mascara on... he would.

There are dishes in the sink right now and it is majorly bothering me. But Jonathon is learning songs for this new potential gig he has... and with the water running he would have to turn the music up too loud to hear since he is near deaf and then we'd get another noise complaint and that would just be a problem. So here I sit, not doing dishes, and putting off some other necessary things I have to do because I can't stop thinking about the dishes.

I miss blogging my heart out :)