Relationship Status.

Yesterday in discussing how confusing dating relationships can be,

Jonathon, with his infinite wisdom told me:

"I love us, we're either married, or we're dead."

Sick.

I am not good at being sick at all.

Throat spray is disgusting and after a few days I just read the directions that Im not supposed to swallow it.

But I am laying in bed and it hasn't killed me yet and Id rather take the risk of what a tiny spray can do to my insides than get out of bed to spit it out.

I am finally after a week of this taking a sick day and going to the doctor.

Doctors cost so much money when you forget to choose a family doctor from your insurance list and it takes a couple weeks to process.

Love my thought process of worrying about it when I need to actually go.

Urgent Care it will be.

Goodnight world.

I intend to wake up feeling 100% healthy p.s.

Lead Me.

This song is amazing to me.

I just think it is so essential for men to understand this!

I really do have a sensational husband.

I also think Sarah was really funny to be laughing at God.

I also think I'm really funny to do the same thing when I read how God spoke to her and I hear how God speaks to me.

Tonight I am very busy thinking I guess because I am also thinking of how I am just not okay being sick.

I am also thinking of how many people don't have clean water.

Yet I dont feel well so I can just sit under wonderfully warm clean water for really as long as I like.

Also, I must be very out of it and very tired because Jonathon is currently gone at rehearsal and I keep hearing unsettling noises that make my heart leap until I realize that I was the cause of the noise. I need sleep.

Zechariah.

Today on the phone Zechariah taught me the different noises that animals make.

Saturday at 534 am I am going to hug him to no avail.

Sorry to his mother, but I won't even stop if he is sleeping :)

Even though I take care of babies as a profession and I know what a bad choice this could be.

My desire for him is overwhelming.

And I am about to eat chicken noodle soup and drink orange juice that my husband so graciously went to buy for me so by tomorrow I will be completely healed and he wont even get any of my nasty germs that are hurting my throat so immensely right now.

I consider myself the happiest aunt right now.

Psalm 149:5

psalm 149:5

"let the godly exult in glory;
let them sing for joy on their beds."

Loved reading this in bed last night as Jon and I sang to Jesus.

Love my husband.

Love my Savior.

Love my marriage.

Girls Weekend.

So this weekend: My dear dear friend took me away.

And it was superb beyond belief.

We were at this amazing paradise resort in San Diego.

Everything about it was perfect.

The walks, food, conversation, live music, bed... EVERYTHING!!

Then. I get to go home and cuddle with my husband all afternoon :)

Life is good.

2 hours.

Jon has been working a lot lately. A lot a lot.

Tonight we had a brief two hours to hang out between work and more work.

It was the greatest.

Sometimes I have to remind myself that God's purposes for Jon's life are far greater and more meaningful than my sometimes desires to do nothing but cuddle all day long, although those days are obviously fantastic, they come when God, knowing the deepest areas of our hearts, sees fit to bless us with them.

Being married never ceases to amaze me.

My husband, never ceases to amaze me.

God's word, never ceases to amaze me.

It's nice living a life of amazement.

Amazement: Overwhelming astonishment.

Overwhelming: to overcome completely in mind of feeling.

Astonishment: Overpowering wonder or surprise.

This is real.

http://eventide.com/News/User%20Profiles/Jon%20Ketcham.aspx

Pretty much, I am married to a rockstar.

True Story.

Kitchen Light.

This evening Jon dropped me off at my connect group.

He had to go finish working on a song and wouldn't be done by nine so I asked a friend to drop me off at home.

I knew it'd be dark and I'd be coming into the apartment alone so I left the kitchen light on.

I walked out of the apartment with Jon right behind me, I started walking out the gate but then turned and realized Jon was still locking the dead bolt like a good husband.

I waited, he finished, we walked.

This evening as I came in I unlocked the door, makes sense to do that.

As I began to open it I realized that I was walking into a completely dark apartment, note: not how I left it.

I froze.

My mind formed the following scenario so quickly:

A man broke in, and after looking around and contemplating what to steal he (being a psychic and knowing the girl in all of the pictures would be coming home without the man in all of the pictures) decided to just lock himself back into the apartment and wait for my arrival to inevitably rape and murder me. But, coming in while it was still light did not realize that one light was left on, so when he went around to make it look like no one was there he turned it off, not knowing that I would immediately be thrown off by the darkness.

So that's the situation.

At this point, turning and running would leave me just in a sketchy part of town in the dark and worse off than in my apartment, taking the time to call Jon would put me in a worse situation when he attacked because my focus would be on the phone and conversation and I would be ill equipped to fend off the attack.

So I swiftly went to turn on the kitchen light and walked back to the bedroom, muscles ready to take on anything waiting.

There was nothing.

I called my husband entirely freaked out, only to find out that somehow, in the briefest of moments he had slipped back inside to turn off that light that I had in his mind carelessly although in my mind very thoughtfully left on.

I worried him a bit.

But now I sit here blogging and confessing to the world the craziness that sometimes entertains my thoughts.