Emily: Lead Me. Blog number Two.

So a bit and a while ago I posted the amazing song "Lead me", which of course stirred my heart because my husband rocks at life and I desired for all men to cry out to God like this.

And then about a week ago Jon began to lead us in worship and asked me what I wanted to sing.

(In this I will admit one of my greatest flaws as I wife which I am happy to say I am getting better at, but this night obviously was not.)

I really wanted to sing "How He Loves" by Misty Edwards because well, if you've heard it you wouldn't need to know why.

But instead of just saying that I said, "oh Jon whatever you want will be lovely with me blah blah"

So he pressed a little more to know what I really wanted because he's genius and knew I was lying, but I am stubborn and he caved and chose "Lead me"

Now at this point in the story you should see my amazing appreciation as a wife to have a husband with such an anointing and intense gift about to lead me in worship...

Instead you will see my selfish, sinful irritation that Jon would choose to lead me in a song that should be his alone time worship and not a girl worship.

So of course, knowing I brought this on myself I kept quiet, attempted to sing a bit and actually have my heart and soul worship with the words, which they did not because I suck.

Afterwards my amazingly smart husband led us in "How He Loves" without my nudge in the least and I then appreciated his awesome thoughts and the rest of our night of worship.

Then Jon made us a new cd in which the first song is in fact, "Lead Me."

So Jon plays this on our way to San Diego.

And then I hear it...

God tugging away at my heart and telling me to put my silliness aside and pray this prayer to Him.

Ahh and now I pray it everyday all the time since.

It's amazing.

It's a cry of social justice.

Picture that homeless man you wouldn't even look at for a second glance the other day:

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

Picture that orphan you feel like will be fine without the money you need to buy coffee:

Picture that ultra-sound of the child that was aborted before they had a chance:

Picture that friend you won't tell about Jesus:

Seeing the faces in my mind and hearing the cry for peace, love and social justice is what has brought me before the LORD crying out:

"So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone"

Emily

Friday, October 8, 2010

Lead Me. Blog number Two.

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